It seems I forgot some muscle groups…

When I started this journey, I invested in a couple of DVD from BODY GROOVE. Because I love to move and these DVDs are about nothing but movement and self love; I can tell you this, they are well worth the purchase.

One thing I learned while doing them, I forgot about some muscle groups I have. Because you are using your feet, legs, hips, waist, arms, hands and well, all of you; you really do not realize it until you start feeling the burn. BURN, you will. After every single workout routine, my entire body is tingling from the burn and I have only done SERIES 1 from Disc 1 of the Dance your Heart Out DVD. It has 3 series per dvd and I have not ventured past series one yet. 1…2.. and a 1, 2, 3…. I have been doing this series at least 3 to 4 days a week.

Now, yesterday, I had a tiny setback. My head hurt from the base of my head, into my neck, down and across my shoulders and into my lower jaw. So, I did not groove to the dvd. I did groove though. You see, I listen to music when I am cleaning the house and cooking and I caught myself doing some of the moves from the routines to the music I was listening to. I was going through the motions without even a second thought about it. That is exactly how fun the DVDs are.

The other disc set I got is a Gentle Yoga and Gentle Pilates combination and I did that Yoga 2 different days. I will say this…. I enjoy the stretching involved in the Yoga but I am going to have to move that part of the workout to the living room on the carpet, instead of the den, on the hardwood floor. Not even a yoga mat helps the knees on the hardwood. Hardwood is unforgiving. The Ortho specialist actually encourages exercising but nothing that involves squats or anything that is hard on my knees. This is a result of the osteoarthritis in both of my knees. Yep, it sucks.

Getting older is a nasty business but it is one you have to do as long as it is not your time. My team of doctors, who know my health issues and immune deficiencies, all agree that exercise helps. There are days I do not feel like doing anything and then I stop, look in the mirror, and ask myself…. what is worse…. feeling bad and remaining the same or the aches and pains from pushing through the day (getting my steps, exercising in some form, and just getting things done)? For someone who lives with pain and issues that are beyond my personal control, I will tell you, I would rather push through because the long term benefits are much better from pushing through the pain than it is giving in and giving up.

Any other time, if the scales did not start dropping fast, I would have given up. The scales do not reflect a huge loss but the tape measure is showing loss and my energy level is improving. Baby steps…. one day at a time.

The journey continues…..

Week 1 wrap-up

This morning marks 1 week of focusing on a healthier me. Last Sunday, I weighed myself and took measurements of areas I want to target. This morning, at the same time as last week, I weighed in and took my measurements. I am happy to report I am 3.2 pounds lighter. I have lost 3 inches on my hips, 2 inches on my waist, a half inch on my chest and 1.5 inches on my thighs.

To say this last week has been rainbows and roses would be a massive falsehood. I wanted a soft drink in the worst way. With that being said, my doctor informed me that the only true soft drink that is ok for people trying to lose weight is Sprite Zero. As he said it, Sprite Zero is basically glorified flavored water and is also the only approved soft drink on Keto. I added that info to the mental file and continued on.

Friday, my energy level increased. Overall, I felt better Friday and since Friday than I have in quite a while. Trust me, that in and of itself is a major improvement. I feel like I have actually been accomplishing something. Before Friday, it has been months since I felt like that. I mean, I have been doing the normal things I do everyday but felt like I was letting everyone down. The thing that I know is my depression was up. I know people who know me would say they cannot believe I suffer from any form of depression, but I do. I just hide it very well. I have found that I have actually not felt depressed since about mid-week.

Someone asked me if I was dieting. How many people hate that word? DIET is a four letter word that, if people are honest, will automatically set you up for failure. So no, I am not on a diet. I am working with my doctor to become a healthier me. Everything I am doing, I have consulted a doctor before beginning. I have to make sure that everything is done without interfering with medicines or health issues I currently have.

The plus side to the minor weight loss is my lower back is not hurting to the point that I need to sit down every few minutes before completing a task. Besides a minor issue with my left knee last night, my knees have not been hurting.

The key thing everyone needs to remember is weight is not put on overnight and it certainly not going to come off overnight. You also do not want to lose weigh too quickly because if you do, the slightest change back to an old habit will pack the pounds back on.

My journey is just getting started. My first goal is 300lbs. My starting weight was 354.2 last Sunday. This morning, I weigh 351. A good average weigh loss is 1 to 3 pounds a week. My plan, this week, I am going to increase the body groove and hopefully add some addition, stretching and yoga. I know I am going to have my bad days and I know I am going to want to give into the cravings and give up. I have lots of reasons to not give up.

I have 10 beautiful grandchildren whom I want to see grow up. I have 6 beautiful kids who I want to continue to watch grow and become the best they can be. I have a partner who I know has my back and will go drill sergeant on me, especially when he sees success and feels me losing the momentum.

I am thankful for my support system and thankful to those who are following along with my journey.

Week 2 begins today…..

I think I can! I think I can!

Day 2, Day 3, Day 4 and Day 5 of this journey were busy. I am still doing what the plan calls for. I can tell you that by the end of day 3, I wasn’t craving a soft drink so bad. There was a period of time, back in 2002, where I was on some meds for swollen retinal nerves and that medicine made anything carbonated taste like straight up carbonation. It was so easy for me to step back from soft drinks then.

I am still struggling to increase my water intake. For all the chubby folks out there, it is said you should drink 1/2 your body weight in ounces of water a day. My ideal water intake is 10 – 16.9fl oz. bottles. That is alot of water and if I drink that much water, I will not have room for food, much less want to eat. The doctor says if I do not eat, at least 3 to 5 small meals a day, it can slow down and even stop my metabolism. What is a person to do?!?

I am finding since Sunday, the pain in my back is not as prominent. I know, without a doubt, it is from the weight of loose skin and current weight that is causing that issue. My back would hurt from just standing and I would have to take breaks from doing even the simplest of task.

As someone who deals with a variety of health issues, my doctor emailed me because he has heard of some of the added effects this plan has. He is specifically interested in energy level, focus, and the possible benefits to the osteoarthritis I have. I sent him a message yesterday telling him about the increase in my energy and focus. I also informed him that my knees don’t seem to be bothering me as much. That is a plus considering they usually ache when damp, rainy weather is around. It is nice not to have that ache.

In 5 days, I have not touched caffeine or soft drinks. I have not stood on the scales. I have not touched the tape measure. I have 2 more days to go before I will do that. In the past 5 days, my appetite has decreased but I know I have to eat, so I have made some egg salad and tuna salad that I can eat with cauliflower crackers. I have bought fruit because I can have apples with peanut butter. I have no big urge to snack but when an urge hits me, I am snacking on mixes of dried fruit and nuts.

I have said and will say that this struggle is very real. Weight can cause undue pressure on bones, depression and low self-esteem and even more, it can cause you to simply stop caring. I watched an episode of My 600-lb life. That was more than enough for me to know that I do not want to do that to my family and loved ones, much less myself.

So, I think I can…. I think I can…. mind over matter….. the weight has got to go because I MATTER!

More later….

Ok, I survived…. day 1

I am not even going to sugar coat this… The struggle was and is real. I drank 5 16.9fl oz bottles of water with lemon and lime flavoring. What I wanted was an Orange Sunkist, a Dr. Pepper, and a Rum and Coke. I will tell you that my desire to get healthy won the battle to say, screw it and get the soda.

Yesterday, my meals were pretty simple.

Breakfast was a vanilla breakfast smoothie. 1 envelope of the vanilla Thrive nutrition, 10 ozs of Simply Almond milk, 1 banana, and ice. Blended until smooth.

Mid-day snack was 1 egg, scrambled and 6 bite size balls of mozzarella cheese.

Lunch was 2 chicken fajitas.

Evening Snack was Planters Nut-rition pecans, almond, cranberries, and blueberries.

I was not even hungry for dinner.

I spent some time yesterday pondering this journey and reasons behind it. I wanted to be 100% certain the reason was for myself and not to make anyone else happy or doing it for anyone else. I am certain I am doing this for me. I have several underlying health issues: asthma, osteoarthritis in my knees and ankles, non-smoker’s COPD, anxiety, depression, and a compromised immune system to round it out.

I am dealing with aches and pains daily and the added weight is not helping the pain that is already there; matter of fact, it simply adds to it. The added weight does nothing to help my breathing or my depression because I hate looking in the mirror. By taking this journey, I am not going to rid myself of all of the pain but I am going to decrease the amount of pain I have due to carrying around the added pounds.

I realize that if I can lose to the weight that I want to by the end of the journey, I will lose basically the weight of a small person. My goal is 200lbs. Yes, I know that is still 200lbs. Once I reach the goal I have set, I will reassess the situation and then focus on losing a few more pounds or turn from losing to maintaining.

I know I can do this. It is going to take doing it one day at a time. Right now, I am giving up sodas and caffeine, next it will be breads and sugar.

Baby steps is what I am taking. Baby steps to inches gone and pounds gone. I want you to share the link to this blog. The more people who follow it, the more accountability I have because I know people are watching this journey and hopefully will make good choices for themselves too.

Til tomorrow….

Welcome to my personal journey!

Look at me! I am 50 years old. A half of a century and since 1991, I have been obese. Take a minute and let that sink it. Here is a woman, in her 50s, telling the world that she is obese. I am not just obese. The medical classification is morbidly obese. At 5’10, my current weight (based on home scales) is 354.2.

Now, I did not plan to be fat or obese. When I was growing up, I wanted better for myself. I had dreams. Then, LIFE happened. Marriage, pregnancy, unhappiness, years of emotional baggage from my childhood and more. My only comfort was food. Well, once I became a mother at the age of 21 (after craving Pineapple Sherbet for 9 months), I had pregnancy weight and then some. However, being a parent, my focus turned to the welfare of my children and making sure they had what they needed, even if I had to do without. Fast forward to 1995, I gave birth to my second child having not lost the weight from the first pregnancy, which added more weight. Fast forward to 1998, I found out I was pregnant again. I jokingly asked my OB/GYN, “can you lose weight during your pregnancy and still have a healthy baby?” Her answer was, “you can lose weight but it is not recommended.” I find this whole interaction funny now. My third pregnancy was so stressful, due to things outside of my own control, that I lost 26 pounds and still gave birth to a 6lb, healthy baby.

As the years passed on, the weight fluctuated but never by much. So fast forward to 2015. In 2015, I had an epiphany. I was 435lbs and I was over it. I woke up one morning and said to myself, ENOUGH! I stopped eating processed foods, stopped eating out, stopped late night snacking, changed a lot of what I was doing and lost down to 298 by the middle of 2016. I was so excited. Then guess what?!? Life Happened AGAIN.

In 2016, my stress level went through the roof. I had a husband I had been separated from since 2011 who refused to divorce. I had teenagers who were becoming adults. Trust me when I say, almost grown kids (and even grown ones) can destroy you with the simplest of actions. Add to the stress, some issues with my health that required medications with steroids in them. Add it all together and what did I do? I turned to FOOD once again.

They say the first step to change is admitting there is a problem. OK, there is a problem. When I start letting things get to me, I turn to food. Unhealthy means of stress relief. Combine the stress eating with the medication and you got it, the weight is back up from 298 to 354.2.

Today is the 17th day of May, 2020. The world around me is dealing with CoVid-19 (Monster Crud, I call it). Gyms are closed. They recommend you minimize the number of people in a group and more. Since I have asthma (really bad) and one of the inhalers I use is a daily one with steroid in it, I am in the “high-risk” category of catching this Monster Crud. It makes being able to exercise almost impossible, especially when you hate doing it alone.

Recently, I invested in Body Groove (Dance your heart out, Yoga and Pilates). It is easy on my hips and knees and absolutely fun to do, even by myself. I am also doing a 5 day test run of Thrive Le-Vel to see if my heart can handle the 5 different caffeines in the patches. Now, I know that none of this is cheap but it is much cheaper than the alternative for me right now. You see, I have 3 choices here: try the Thrive and Body Groove and pray that the combination of the 2 help to kick-start the weight loss again; have the gastric surgery (I have heard and seen the pros and cons), or GIVE UP! One thing that no one can ever say about me is that I quit. I am not a Quitter. I am a fighter. I have too much to live for to allow something like stress and medication get the best of me. I also think that Thrive and Body Groove is cheaper in the long run to the surgery.

So, welcome to my journey to a healthier me. I am not doing this for anyone or any other reason except that I am tired of being tired. I am tired of looking in the mirror and hating what I see looking back at me. I love who I am, I just hate how I look. I also know I am not the only person who struggles and feels like no one else can possibly understand that the STRUGGLE IS REAL. So, today, I started Day 1 of Thrive W. I weighed in on my scales at 354.2 so I could determine how much water I need to be drinking (1/2 of my body weight in ounces divided by 12 hours a day = 10 16.9 fl oz bottles over a 12 hour period.) I also took my measurements (bust, waist, hips, and thigh) and I am not going to step back on the scale or get the measuring tape out until next week.

If you are tired of carrying around extra baggage, come take this little walk with me. Find some way, routine, diet plan, or something to help kick start your journey. Shock the body into burn mode. Wake up the metabolism. All is takes is the desire and knowing someone is with you and will listen to you so you are not alone.

Here we go…..